I'm learning that even though there are dishes to clean, emails to answer, floors to sweep, clothes to be folded, where my time is best spent is right here with this little girl in my arms. There will ALWAYS be dishes to clean and floors to sweep but the days I have, being exactly what my daughter needs are limited. She won't always need the comfort of my arms to feel safe and soothed for her afternoon nap and while it's hard to look around our not so perfect house and think, gosh I should be straightening things up, I'm learning to let go and be what my daughter needs in the moment.
It's so easy to feel like I need to constantly be "doing." Part of me attributes this to the fact that I'm not working outside of the home right now and if our house is in tip top shape at all times I'm doing my part and pulling my weight. I've wrestled with this for the past few months and am finally starting to realize I'm pulling more than my weight around here by being the best mom and wife I know how to be- that having a happy, healthy, well loved daughter is way more important than a clean kitchen.
I'll blink my eyes and these sweet, easy going, cuddly days will be gone and I don't want to wake up knowing I should have just slowed down and enjoyed them. I do enjoy them and I want them to be filled with cuddles AND piles of laundry because honestly, that's real life and how our days should be spent.